Archive for September 30, 2013

Move On

Stop worrying where you’re going. Move On.
If you can know where you’re going, you’ve gone. Just keep moving on.

So, you may have noticed that I have taken down my band page.
There’s a very logical explanation for that.
I’m not in the band anymore.

For the maybe, 12 people who know, I have been with The Icky House Club for the past 5 years. And I’ve been enjoying singing with my friends for some time, in between stage shows and family time.
At times, it has been hectic and crazed, but I loved it.

But for the past couple of months, I haven’t loved it.
I mean, it has been fun, but somewhere down the line it stopped being enough. For a while, I couldn’t understand why.
Then I got to do a show in Connecticut over the summer and I kind of got the picture as to what I was missing.
I was missing the boards. I missed doing plays and musicals.
The camaraderie of a cast. The sure hand of a director. And a script and sets and scores.
I missed all of that.
A lot.

I chose and my world was shaken. So What?
The choice may have been mistaken. The choosing was not.

That’s where my heart truly lie and I wanted more of that.
I wanted to move forward in my career as an actor, not as a rock star.
Let’s face it, I’m no Joan Jett.
(Why Joan Jett? Because she will never NOT be badass. Good ahead, try and picture her non-badass. I’ll wait.
See? Can’t be done.)

It was a difficult decision to make, but in the end, we came to the conclusion that we’ll all be happier if I get to be an actress and the boys get to be a band.

So, I wrote all of this down to say, I’ll probably work with the guys on and off in the future, but as of now, I’ll be looking for more acting work, theater or otherwise.

You know that feeling you get when you’re having a great time, but there’s that turning point? That moment just before the realization that “I’ve stayed too long at the fair?” That moment came.
I’ll miss the band stuff, but when it’s time to go, it’s time to go.
I have a new direction, so I need a new road.
I’m moving on.

And that’s all there is to say about that.

I’m Just a Lucky So-and-So

I live deep in the world of struggling actors, and it is a world. (Seriously, we could secede and start our own country.)

And every once in a while, we beat the odds just a little bit and get the ever elusive job. And when that happens, we want to do everything we can to KEEP that job. Especially, when nothing has been signed, filmed or guaranteed.

Once, long ago, I got a job and lost it in a matter of a week, before I so much as stepped into a rehearsal. Long story and it’s easy come, easy go, I guess. But ever since then, I’ve been very superstitious about work.

So far this year, I’ve gotten a couple of jobs that have made me happy AND given me the experience I need. And now, there’s one in the works that I’m going to be so excited about… when I can actually say something about it. 🙂
I can only hope there’s more on the horizon.